My life as a Mum to an angel

It’s all about me!

Well, here goes. So do I start my story from the day my mum gave birth to me? I suppose that’s where it all started but I don’t remember that or the couple of years that followed, so not much of an interesting read there. I could probably cover it with some basic information about me.

  • I was born in England
  • I moved to California
  • I am married to a Canadian
  • I am an RN in England but not in the USA
  • I work as an Operating Room Technician
  • I have had 3 miscarriages
  • My only child died from Bacterial Meningitis in 2009
  • I have 5 step-daughters
  • I have 2 dogs and 2 beta fish

The real reason for me starting to blog is that our son died of bacterial meningitis at 8 months old. I really don’t see life the same anymore. I am a changed person because of that one pivotal event in my life and there is no going back to who I used to be. Therefore, I think part of this is getting to know who I am now.

It’ll be 2 years in July since he died, and I’m sure I’ll blog about that whole event at some point. I’m really just going to let the words flow out I suppose whenever they have the urge to be put into black and white. Even this far along from that fateful day, and that alone used to terrify me, time passing away from the last time I held him, I find that grief encapsulates me and has such a strong hold on me that I cannot imagine feeling any other way ever again.

So as I said, I have to get to know this grief encapsulated person that I have become, and hopefully find a way to learn to live with her and maybe even gain some control over her again like I had before.

There is much more to tell because as I said my story is long-winded but this is a good start and has the basics down. Seems like a good beginning to me.


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